#corkscrew. 

Years ago I blogged about me corkscrew back.  Once again the corkscrew visits.  Seems to be in my lower spine.  Feels as though someone is at moments slowly turning the screw.  The pains radiate hear there and everywhere.  Some moments it’s my feet, some my shoulder, some my eyes,  right outside fingers.  So far I maintain by doing a variety of lamaza breathing. Yoga.  Epsom soaks. You name it I have tried it.  Meditation. Massage. Acupuncture. Ezcersise.  Steroid shots.  Just haven’t found the right them of life to help ensure the stresses to my body and mind that produce a variety of issues for me.  Going to go soak for a bit.  Listen to some Nina Simone  and let the toxins, stressed melt away until I can get up and walk without wincing at each step.  If you see me walking stretching here there and everywhere I am just working out some stuff.   

    
 
I should probably go for training with aunt dawn because once agin my 102 grandmother seems to be in better physical shape then me.  

Go grandma go 

Go aunt dawn go. 

We are all so lucky to have grandma stowe in our lives.  I am so thankful that dawn has been able to do so much for grandma.  

We do what we can. But often we are running around in so many different directions that it is hard to fit all we want to do.  

Reality tells me we should enjoy as many moments with grandma as we can.  For when she is no longer with us we will be  would’ve, could’ve should’ves’.    

We will visit grandma before we go to chris first born daughter Monica!  

Love ya bye 

Seasons of change.  

Fall one of my favorites.   Perfect days.  Not too hot not too cold.  The smell in the air warms my heart. My mind and body feel a need to take it all in with all of my senses. Soon the cold and gray will come. Those changes are hard for my. I must find a way to embrace that season.  With that season comes thanksgiving. One of my favorite holidays.  Chru and u used to slip away the Wednesday before thanks giving to eureka springs.   They were magical escapes. We would close our books and enjoy the quite peace of such a unique place.   We have been pleased to have many amazing experiences.  Where we close are books and minds and embrace the moments right in front of us.  Europe.  Meeting Monica.  Giving birth to renee and Gigi.  Hiking the buffalo.  Devils den.  White rock cabins    Weddings.  Funerals.  Too many of those over the last year.   Being present in the moment continues to be difficult for me.  We seem to often be thinking of the next moment.  Sometimes fear of what’s to come paralyses me. I want fear of what’s to come to motivate me.  For the future will happen the way it is meant to be. Can’t wait to see how it turns out.  

Falling 

I wonder if I could use this to create blog entries what I prefer typing or enter or voice command it’s interesting space. I hope that didn’t work well so it’s fun to play in test so here I am testing on my blog recently I recently uploaded a program to my mom’s computer so that she could do voice act I can remember the first time I learn about all timers it scared the shit out of me and now it continues to scare me every time I forget something I think oh my God could be as we learn the things we are taught can sometimes scare us or leave us in a direction to try to not experience something or to know that whatever experience comes our way will be so I wonder why the voice activation seems to not be able to keep up with my voice I get a beep and then it stops and I press the microphone again these little handheld devices and computers have amaze me from day one I was lucky to receive Macintosh early in my life I have 11 hate relationship with them now on one hand I was want to figure out what all I can use them for on another hand I would like to go for six months without touching a device but then string thing about that is there’s a device and everything whether that’s a car phone I microwave or refrigerator there seems to be little computers here there and everywhere whether it’s a chip in your dog it’s so interesting I friend from high school sales home go sit down Sheba it’s fall now and October which to me is one of my favorites the trees are changing perfect weather sadness comes in a little bit to be reminded that soon the trees will be gray dreary and cold and I will long for the spring days fallen OK so let’s start this more do I preferred over do I create as I go do I fix back how is it the best work with something like an audio program I just don’t know at this point in my life that I like this I do sometimes like it to send a text or send an email rather than use my thumbs I can be pretty fast when it comes to typing with my thumbs so I wonder how you do so if I say the word space then it doesn’t work so I guess it doesn’t recognize that. Now about this erase return nope that doesn’t work either so I wonder what how it would work what’s the best way hey how are you if she’s pretty good

I’m back 

years ago I blogged.  My kids were younger.  I blogged for me.  It was a place for me to reflect and process things. It was like a journal for me.  When I was younger I loved journaling. I think it can be healing interesting and fun.  

My blogging days ended when apple killed iweb.  I saved all my iWeb files. Someday maybe I will find them on one of my many computers or external hard drives and share them here

For now, I guess I’m blogging, journaling, processing or whatever you chose to call it again?!!