This weekends rain reminds of me of living on the rivers. With alligators and adjudicated youth.  

If it were a bit warmer I would bundle up and get wet.  Walking in a warm rain can be very restorative for me.   Though cold rain makes something inside seem to fight against myself.  My bones my brain seem to need more to move and wake up.  

I feel certain that my 102 year old grandma is in better shape than I am.   Will my aches and pains motivate me to not stress and not struggle with so much.   

My goal is to find the joy in the pain.  Happy. Happy joy joy.