Yellow Rock #faroutstars

My Sunday started like most others.

Impeachment trials. CBS Sunday morning. Saints Sunday. Impromptu hike to yellow rock.

When we arrived at the lookout, I felt that the energy was off. We were made aware that a young man was hurt below. And people were working there way to him. And more were in route.

As I assessed the situation, I was amazed by the calmness of all.

A young man had been climbing/hiking alone. Nobody knew him. He was responsible and some other hikers had made there way down to attempt to assist him.

The crowd on the rock became larger as time slowing ticked by. Eventually search and rescue arrived. I have been noticing everyone seems to be so busy theses days. And when I hear someone say just been busy. Or I’m. Hoping it will slow down around the corner. Waiting on the rock for that trained magic men, I felt no need to be anywhere else. Actually I was fascinated by the people saving experience that I was witnessing.

I felt very present in the moment on the mountain. I reminisced about past training knowledge and experience that I have had previously. I felt weirdly useful in helping to explain some of the procedures that we were witnessing a the search rescue team worked there magic.

Sometime I often struggle to know where to fit into the mix or moment. In this afternoon experience, I felt more in tune with my place in the puzzle.

Sure hope the #faroutstar who fell is getting the help he currently needs. I appreciate all the magical amazing rescue team who were very impressive to watch help this young man. True #faroutstars

19-year-old man airlifted after fall at Devil’s Den State Park

Little Libraries.

My husband worked for three years on this little library. It was a sweet precious gift. I have loved little libraries since my first discovery of them. And little pantries that began in Northwest Arkansa also are such a special also!

I have dreamed of seeking out all the little libraries in Northwest Arkansas and showing them some love!

 

Someday maybe!!

Though my big hope is to see a repurposed Star Shopper newspaper box into a little free library in my front yard. I have dreamed of this for years. Renee began the repurposing of the box two years ago. This summer I added to it. It’s basic and not quite finished but it’s finished enough to be put in the yard. Though it continues to sit in our backyard dues to a fight disagreement or whatever else you want to call it between my husband and I. He doesn’t want it and I do. So how do we work this out. Who knows. For now I continue to feel frustrations and feelings of why not. His argument is that he doesn’t think it’s needed it looks trashing and is not willing to put it out until I remove the other plastic star shopper box. And I refuse to remove it. At some point I will drag it out to the curb myself.

I joke that it may be a continue piece of contingency between chris and I. I may drag it out there then he drag it back to the back yard. And back and forth until one of our backs goes completely out and we no longer can do it.

It’s kind of a joke but it really is a huge frustration for me.

I think why not. Is it really hurting anything to have it. Because the fight hurts my feelings. And my not wanting to give in to his requests seems to hurt his feelings. Control is ultimately the issue. Who’s in co trip. Who gets to make the decisions for our house.

It’s my house it’s my street it’s my yard too. In many of my friends relationships they seem to want something and the spouse seems to just agree and do it. Though in my world it feels like I have an idea and I must convince chris to the idea. Sometimes I wish it weren’t so difficult and I could do what I want. In the overall scheme of thing I know I can but I don’t want to hurt his feeling.

https://littlefreelibrary.org

Modern Love!

In Mitch Albom’s book Tuesday’s with Morrie, Morrie speaks of allowing grief in our lives. Like grieving the end of a good book! Just watched a series on Amazon that makes me sad to end it! Similar to how I felt when M.A.S.H, Friends, Senifield, or Parenthood ended!

If you need a sweet story of all kinds of life, love and loss, watch Modern Love on AMAZON! Once again adoption is everywhere! Lots of ups, downs and all arounds! so many #faroutstars! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=650Mt63HIBU

CBS Sunday morning is sometimes the show that helps me get to the emotions that I tend to bury and struggle to allow myself to feel.   For as long as I can remember, I run and hid from my emotions.  They scare me!   They overwhelm me!  They hurt! They embarrass me!

As REM wrote “Everybody Hurts”! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5rOiW_xY-kc

Fear seems to be the one emotion that I sit in often in my life.  My fear seems to paralyze me time and time again.  Wether it is facing the truths of my birth or to speaking from my authentic place due to the fear of what others with think.    A women in my group often says your words, your actions will not cause anyone to die. I give my thoughts an overwhelming amount of power! I hear this and it makes so much sense, though I continue to be struggling to speak my hopes, dreams and frustrations due to the pain that may come.  Though theses overwhelming thoughts continue to cause me the most damage and destruction of my authentic self.

CBS Sunday morning helps me cry almost every week.   This week it was a story of Chika!  Such a sweet special young girl who lived a short life!  Mitch Albom and his wife adopted her into their lives!  Chika’s life story and the Albom’s love for her overwhelmed me!  Love is overwhelming!

Chika’s life may be over but her spirit and story will forever change many for good!  For me it allowed me to release some tears and be reminded that we only get one chance to be here.  So work hard to be who you are!  Your being won’t kill anyone!

New book, ‘Chika’ to publish November 2019

New book, ‘Chika’ to publish November 2019

Earth guardians. Think tank youth inspiring solutionaries

Environmental crisis And social movements. and how it affects your people.

Mohawk. Plant people. Mohawk emergent school.

Climate justice.

“We are all one!!!”

Plants are relatives plants are teachers. Plants are medicines.

Taught how sacred plants are to indigenous people.

Pushing for justice.

Pollution affects us all.

Injustice on our plant life.

Golden triangle. Beaumont Texas most pollutes 90 refineries. Mostly Black and brown people affected.

South Dakota. Love our sovernity. Responsibility of saving this world. For those before us got to enjoy.

For us young people we worry about protecting them and they don’t have to suffer from the fact that our land is unable to support us. Why have a life.

Parents work to make a better life for their children. Keep on fighting as young people. It’s all intersected. We talk of our future we talk of our land. This land is not ours. We need to help our Mother Earth survive to help provide for her children.

See it as a spiritual war. Mining of our indigenous people. Young people to be wise beyond our years. We have to be warriors at such young age

Beautiful warriors fighting this war together.

Ponca City. Oklahoma. Remember a time when we did not have earthquakes. Ok is now the most earthquake place in the county.

Highest cancer rate highest teen pregnancy high single parent rate.

Social justice and climate justice intertwined. Our people affected by the injustices but they have no voice in the world of decisions. Harmful indestructible. Negative affects before the corporations even come to your lands.

Women Daughters Being taken from them.

Man camps come with the

They have to fight for brown and

Two spirit. LGBT

Watch my hero die of cancer.

Finding deer dead due to the grass and the water they drink. The strawberries have a film over them. The springs are dying. They were a source of life. They were labeled resources.

We are a part of nature!

Climate justice social justice the are the same.

Overwhelming the climate justice. But we have the opportunity to create

How do we have good communities. How do we have good lands.

All have different needs of lands. Sustain the land. So grandparents can pass on.

How are we creating Regenerative future?

“Place where we lived a long time”

Can’t live from land because we are afraid they will cause people to get sick. Film I. The water. Fish floating to the top of the water.

Hope in he fact that we are having these conversations. Hope that people are problem solving.

Pipeline? Systemetc genocide for years. How do you be indigenous people in these times of colonization.

Seventh offenders project.

Suicide epidemic. 62 attempt suicide 30 succeeded.

Someone out there to provide help. We have so much comfort out there. Capitalism and colonization have profited off the land

Environmental racism.

Make sure the young people have the best they can have

Tired of having others to save them.

Help lift up the voices of our ancestors. But have to navigate through a tough world the educational world because that is the best system to help raise the voices of the ancestor. Help my people. Help voice their voices and create spaces for them to be heard.

Mothers books helped him know his peoples history. 1926. Standing bear. Had to flight to be thought of as a human!

Brown women can go upstream. Even when people are telling them your crazy. She was going to show them what crazy can do.

Leaders chief are the voice of the people.

Privilege with education!! Not maybe be our stuff. But giving it our all representing a nation when I move around the world.

MEMORY HOLDS POWER

Taught in school was a misrepresentation of my people. Told about generational trauma. Pain that my mom and grandma went through I felt that confusion and the pain.

LAND IS SAD. Our mother is sad she is hurt. She’s confused.

HOPE working with youth

We feel the same we don’t identify them the same way. Things effect our influence

The hope is that it’s up to us!!! Make sure our voices are being heard. The understanding the accepting it. The respect we are getting give me hope that you will respect our words and our mission. The passion this voice is the spirit of the ancestor. The beauty in your dna. Reconnecting with the land

In a world still fighting for our voice!!!!

Hold each other accountable.

The world was made with the blood of the indigenous and on the backs of the slaves.

REGARDEN THR EARTH. Regard the Mother Earth.

The youth are angry. They know we are worth more than we have been given.

Children of the day are the future leaders.

Young people are all indigenous. Living in colonial world is hard.

Plant seeds in the children.

Show them that they are cared for and loved.

Children. Love ya so much we are willing to change this world for the better.

Your voice matters!!!

Indigenous futurism.

The healing of the youth.

“If you want to know the health of a country look to the indigenous people”

We are all humans. We are all indigenous to the world.

Cycle of colonizing being passed on from generation to generation

Rules of the earth. Laws of man can override the laws of Mother Earth.

People are shapes of the water and the land.

Indigenous futurism will take healing. Healing the trauma and that pain.

Indigenous futurism. Looks like acknowledging the people and including them in the decision making. Ancestor knowledge is not a new concept.

Indigenous futurism. Is togetherness.

Dakota 38 ride. Honor ride for 38 Dakota chiefs that were hung on Christmas Day by Abraham Lincoln.

Seasonal people. No Christmas. We had a togetherness around Christmas. 800-2000 people participate. Their is a togetherness of the people. It’s like it’s a village again.

Removed them from sacred spots. Everyone had a place in he world. Look into your indigenous baby’s and let them know their is a place for them.

Being the descended of a massacre. Making our pain into medicine. Sacrifice

Caring for all beings. Caring for each other. Life’s journey being a descendent of a termination of my people.

We are still here. How can we bring that healing back.

Indigenous futurism Togetherness.

Indigenous futurism That pain that fear cane courage. We are here today. Someone somewhere gave their lives so that we are here. Earth and blood memories. Mother Earth remembers the sisters that were taken the men she has taken back. Where do we go from here. We can all live with each other but we don’t loose ourselves.

In order to have a future we need to think about each other. We need to be uncomfortable.

Policy change.

Rights of nature into our

Right of every human being to have clean air and clean water.

all life carries water. At water is the carrier of all life

Where ever you stand you have influence!!!

Fought to be seen fought to be heard. Build bridges. We all need to work together to fight for the earth

People against people? We all suffer one way or another. People are natural nutures.

Collective liberation and collective humanity.

Strongest position of Power is to be in alignment with your people.

Lateral

Not a lot of uplifting people.

Write our own story. Acting out our own story. Use your voice use your creativity.

We all come from suffering and we all come from beauty.

French government recognizes Degas House in New Orleans — National Post

NEW ORLEANS — The French government has added a New Orleans house where the French painter Edgar Degas lived briefly to a network of houses of famous French people. Degas House Museum owner David Villarrubia says the bed and breakfast will be able to display a large red medallion showing it is part of the […]

via French government recognizes Degas House in New Orleans — National Post

Raising Gleason – NOLA Family Magazine

Saints player Steve Gleason talks fatherhood, ALS, New Orleans, and parenting with Nola Family
— Read on www.nolafamily.com/raising-gleason/

I can remember when my cousin, John Delong and his girlfriend Patty Frisk began dating. John worked at Frisky’s a restaurant in Northwest Arkansas. I am sure I did not know this at the time because I was younger. I remember them showing up to our house on his motorcycle. They were cute and sweet together. Patty reminds me of my great grandma Stowe and great grandma Virginia Stowe. Always sweet, always kind and always find he goodness in people.

My great grandma and my great uncle, would leave an event or talk about people and then say “they are good people, no really they are”. It was as if maybe I didn’t hear them or I didn’t believe them.

Well Patty and John are good people! No really they are!!

I can’t recall when I first learned about ALS, also known in the past as Lou Gehrig’s disease. Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis, ALS.

I have some other words that I like to use when referring to this disease. But I will spare you my aware words.

We were so happy when Patty and John decided to marry and begin a family. Distance caused our relationship to be here there and everywhere. Sometimes keeping up with each other’s families through our mother’s. Though Patty was always good about sending Christmas letters and pictures. Something I too have once loved doing. Life so often seems to get in my way of snail mail. For two years, I have printed some cards sometime throughout the year. Addressed some, written personal memos even addressed but then never mailed. Damn me. And chris would be really pissed if he knew I spend money that he may seem as wasted. But I see it similar to the bait he buys and looses. These are similar issues that I had when I was younger. After our wedding, my mother would ask have you written all your thank you notes. At one point I told my cousin, Alex, who was dutifully trained to write thank you notes, that I may have thanked some people twice and some not at all. I really thought I was joking a bit. but Alex let me know they got two!!! Sorry to any I didn’t thank along the way.

I often say “consider me thanked!”

Over the years one motto is “do what you can when you can”. With Chris and I”s large family and friends there were times that we couldn’t afford to give to all we love And he stress it created for me at times became too stressful. When I realized that he joy had gone, I stopped giving any gifts. I committed to give our children the best we could. Don’t we all want more for our children?!

I think of so many of my mottos that have to do with leaving a place better then you found it.

Well our girls have lots of passion pertaining to there condition of he planet.

They carry disposable straws. They recognize the waste and consumption that seems so prevalent in our world. Some is important and at times I must have a straw.

I am so happy that Patty and her family have technology and resources to assist each other to care for one another. They get to meet their first grand child this fall and see their baby girl get married.

Though I am still I bit in denial that Chris and I beat them to grandparent world. I am so happy for their family. Our girls adore Megan. She was so helpful with our girls when she was in college. I can remember playing with both Angela and Megan over the years. Climbing trees, rolling around on the grass and playing with John. Like when my brothers and cousins were playing war in the back ground and I asked to play. They said that I could be the nurse. Well thank God someone else stepped in when an accident happen. I know john, Megan and Angela are the perfect people to love Patty. And to be her arms and legs just like Steve Gleason is able to describe in the above article.

Patty and Steve are both #faroutstars to me.

As June celebrates Father’s Day, I reflect on all the men who have modeled wonderful fathering. And I am excited for the new father’s. That get to experience the journey.

Happy Father’s Day!

Happy Memorial Day weekend.

I often reflect on those whom have served and for those who currently serve. In theses moments, I am filled with gratitude for what they have fought and served to protect.

https://www.kofc.org/en/index.html

Ben Harrison and Sarah Stafford Farnet.

Bert Stafford and Sarah Stafford Farnet.

https://www.nationalww2museum.org

(Michelle Cosgrove, Monica Ferrari, Chris Farnet)

Here is a sweet story of a WWII veteran reviving his metas:

World War II veteran receives metals

As we travel south to New Orleans and Bay Saint Louis, we will do as much as we can to run around the city connecting with family & friends. Over the years, the wants and needs lists of what we should do when we travel doesn’t always align.

There is always so much to do and so many places to be. We are blessed in that we have had the resources to do so much. Of course, we want to do everything! Do what you can, when you can!

We have had the chance to go to the World War II museum in New Orleans. It was fascinating. Learning and seeing the boats that delivered soldiers to the beaches of Europe was amazing and overwhelming!

https://www.nationalww2museum.org

I can’t even imagine!!!

Reading or watching movies: “Saving Private Ryan”, “Pearl Harbor”, “Unbroken”, “Boys in the boat”, “Dunkirk”

My father rarely spoke of his time at war. I recall that he was stationed in Mineral Wells when he first enlisted. In my twenties, I became familiar with Mineral Wells when I worked at Camp Grady Spruce.

While I was in Mineral Wells, I turned 21. On our days off we would visit the local hootenanny’s. My dad would have been about sixteen when he was training to go to war. I imagine he spent some time in the same hootenannies that I did.

Chris says “he fell in love with me” when he visited me on Possum Kingdom Lake. When I helped him climb up and down my challenge course wall, was when he knew he loved me! I remember looking into his eyes when he was struggling to repel off the 100 feet wall. I helped many up and down the wall that summer! I said “look into my eyes, keep your legs straight and walk down the wall, keeping your legs straight in front of you”.

So as we celebrate Memorial Day weekend, I am remind what satirist, John Oliver or Trevor Noah said “it seems like America forgets that they are at war”?!

See Trevor Noah at The AMP! https://waltonartscenter.org/AMP/upcoming-concerts/trevor-noah/